Make plans to bring together the old and the new.
The waiting period is over. Make plans to bring together all the aspects of the you. The good news is that if you think about it, all that worrying has served you well. If it's still family you're worried about, stop it. If it will help you, get them together, its time to explain to them and see what happens.
You're given to worrying like this, and you know it; you've done it for a long time. A friend has pushed you hard and learn you have, something you don't want to, your resistance is now legendary.
If you must, you must, and we understand you don't go down without a fight. You're on an emotional roller coaster right now. You're gathering info that will help you figure out a very mysterious reality.
Hope alone won't turn this reality into the one of your dreams. If you know what it is you want from this world, it's up to you to create it. Don't get mad if the mundane's can't read your mind, you are beyond their comprehension.
Taking a little extra care with your health, doing your best isn't possible when you're feeling lousy. Eating right, get some exercise, and don't burn the candle at both ends.